Thank you all for the thoughts, advice and input last week and over the weekend. And can I just say, you were so totally right? I am now firmly in the always-counter offer camp – the company did accept my counter offer and I’ve decided to take the position. It wasn’t an easy decision to make, but when I resigned on Friday the conversation went something like this with our newish boss:
Me – I’ve been offered another position at ——– doing ——–, here’s one month’s notice, you can always call me for help…
My boss – But you’ve only been here a little over a year, and you don’t know anything about working for a corporation and doing ——-! And then she emailed the entire HR department in a panic and posted my job description online. So no love lost between me and my Gucci-scarf wearing, Coach-bag carrying, come in at nine in the morning and leave and four with a two hour lunch break thrown in there VP.
Still though, I’m sad to leave my job. For one year I really had the best job in the world, and it could have been so good. It really could have, if the powers that be hadn’t decided to hire a different VP and my old boss hadn’t left – it could have been beautiful. But all that is good and true about working in cancer care comes from the people, in a staff believing that excellent patient care and the possible eradication of the disease is more important than the politics of the workplace. And really, my current boss lost me when, in our first staff meeting she looked around at a staff of all women and said “Ug. I hate working with all women. Women are much too hormonal and crazy.” Sacrificed sisterhood, anyone? She “works much better with men, who don’t have all those hormone surges.” At any rate.
Benefits of my new job? Shorter commute, and the ability to move close by when our lease is up because of its affordability. More money, more vacation, more sick time, more holidays. A Starbucks in the building. Leaving a small, insular department for a company with people my age. Invaluable experience. A vice president who values lunch breaks and himself goes home for his own, every day.
It’s true this isn’t necessarily my dream job, but since my dream job is writing novels I have to take what I can get, and I feel extremely fortunate to have this opportunity. S. has also been offered a new position, one which will continue to work around his student schedule, so our household is all a-flurry with suspense lately. I really wish I was one of those people who handles situations like this with unflappable aplomb but I am not – I’m still in the grips of some pretty wicked insomnia and I managed to yank a muscle in my neck on the left side that hurts like a thousand daggers being stabbed into me. I feel like I have an engine running in me all of the time, my skin has broken out and I’m sort of sad. That’s how I react to life changes like the above, though, and it will soon work itself out. I am NOT good with uncertainty and change, and truth be told I’d probably thrive, physically and emotionally, in this position if I just stayed here indefinitely, buying coffee where I always buy coffee and eating the same lunches and doing the same workouts and…well…you know what? I really took the new job because I think in the long run I’ll be able to write more. Shorter commute? That will help. Financial security? Always helpful, from what I’ve heard. Working in a university town? yay, lots of other writers and writerly events to meet and attend. It’s a new start – a chance to become more disciplined in my writing, and a chance to really dig into a community and commit to it for a long time. I have – high hopes, for the new year.
I finished The Awakening – the second in my From the Stacks challenge. Not sure what is up next in terms of that particular reading challenge – I hope to post on The Awakening and A room with a view together soon. I also just noticed I was tagged for a couple of memes, so there’s a lot to do. Thanks again, to all of you for your help – you gave me the courage to go after the extra dinero and take a new position on my own terms.